San Fran Trip

What makes me want to leave

People not answering
Not answering texts
Liking peoples shit who you introduced them too more than yours
Acting closer to your friends then you are
Holding grudges for dumb shit
Hypocrites
People who NEVER fucking talk to you unless you talk to them first
When you only ever see someone because you make the plans

Press on Nails

Completely consumed in myself. Perhaps this paranoia about people and what they think of me has mattered lately. Maybe cause I have time to stop and think about it. And now that I have stopped to think about it. I realize that I destroyed every single relationship to give them 100% of my life and heart. And being cast away so abruptly. I see everything I have been missing. I see everything I had left behind, forgotten about, stopped touching. I'm being forgotten and I am not missed. I guess I just wish I knew how to get over that.

Why do you care

Moments when you have noticed someone deleted you, or they didn't message you back. I think, I wonder what i must have done to make them not like me. I guess it doesn't have to be that. I then think, wtf do I care. Lol. I have a horrible problem of needing to please people and needing them to like me. When I really don't.

It was finally decided that we are not going to Australia. More on that later ;)

Recent Vegas Trip

LeT

I find myself almost in the state of a teenager these days, Melodramatic if you will. Heh. Up and Down and Up and Down again. Sometimes finding my way out of the hole, often times not. Letting the memories sit like foam on my brain. I'm afraid I have to forget them to be able to move on. I think it's the nature of humans to feel unresolved in this matter, unaware of the happiness the lies within their own minds. Funny that knowing everything I do, It changes nothing I feel in my heart. I guess that would be the biggest human flaw ever. We are so draw to what is physically happening to us in the moment, the heart beat increasing, the pounding, the sudden awareness of how fast or slow its going. A loss putting a weight on our chests, as if we have no control of it. We do, and we Can over come ourselves. You can get over yourself and think about the fucking world instead of YOU YOU YOU all the time. And I guess that is where I draw my energy towards, trying to be grateful for where I am and what I have even though I am so terribly disappointed with this pit stop in life. No matter, I live to dream again

you moved into to my mind again

"Quicksand"

Oo-oo-oo-oo
Oo-oo-oo-oo

I'm the obsessor
Holding your hand
It seems you have forgotten
About your man
Alone in the darkness
My bed's a different land
Your touch intensifies
And I'm in the quicksand
I'm in the quicksand
I'm in the quicksand

You're the upsetter
Stroking my hand
What's my position?
I don't understand
Am I your possession?
Am I in demand?
Oh, when you turn to me
I'm in the quicksand
I'm in the quicksand
I'm in the quicksand

You, you moved into to my mind again, oh
You, walking around rent free, oh
Oh, I can't let you stay
But I'm walking on broken ground again
Oh, when will I learn?
All you do is push me back in the dirt

Oo-oo-oo-oo
Oo-oo-oo-oo

Aaah, Aaah
I'm in the quicksand
oo-oo-oo-oo
I'm in the quicksand
oo-oo-oo-oo
I'm in the quicksand
oo-oo-oo-oo
I'm in the quicksand

Egg and Spinach Quiche Cups

Egg and Spinach Quiche Cups

10 ounces frozen chopped spinach
3/4 cup egg whites
3/4 cup shredded fat free cheese
1/4 cup red bell pepper, chopped
1/4 cup onion, chopped fine
hot sauce (optional)

Microwave the spinach on high for 2 1/2 minutes. Drain completely.
Line a 12 cup muffin tray with foil baking cups. Spray the cups with cooking spray.
Combine the egg substitute, cheese, mushrooms, spinach and onions in a bowl.
Add hot pepper to taste.
Divide evenly among the cups.
Bake at 350 for 20 minutes or until knife inserted comes out clean.
May then be frozen if desired.
Makes six muffin cups, 75 Calories each

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