LeT

I find myself almost in the state of a teenager these days, Melodramatic if you will. Heh. Up and Down and Up and Down again. Sometimes finding my way out of the hole, often times not. Letting the memories sit like foam on my brain. I'm afraid I have to forget them to be able to move on. I think it's the nature of humans to feel unresolved in this matter, unaware of the happiness the lies within their own minds. Funny that knowing everything I do, It changes nothing I feel in my heart. I guess that would be the biggest human flaw ever. We are so draw to what is physically happening to us in the moment, the heart beat increasing, the pounding, the sudden awareness of how fast or slow its going. A loss putting a weight on our chests, as if we have no control of it. We do, and we Can over come ourselves. You can get over yourself and think about the fucking world instead of YOU YOU YOU all the time. And I guess that is where I draw my energy towards, trying to be grateful for where I am and what I have even though I am so terribly disappointed with this pit stop in life. No matter, I live to dream again

you moved into to my mind again

"Quicksand"

Oo-oo-oo-oo
Oo-oo-oo-oo

I'm the obsessor
Holding your hand
It seems you have forgotten
About your man
Alone in the darkness
My bed's a different land
Your touch intensifies
And I'm in the quicksand
I'm in the quicksand
I'm in the quicksand

You're the upsetter
Stroking my hand
What's my position?
I don't understand
Am I your possession?
Am I in demand?
Oh, when you turn to me
I'm in the quicksand
I'm in the quicksand
I'm in the quicksand

You, you moved into to my mind again, oh
You, walking around rent free, oh
Oh, I can't let you stay
But I'm walking on broken ground again
Oh, when will I learn?
All you do is push me back in the dirt

Oo-oo-oo-oo
Oo-oo-oo-oo

Aaah, Aaah
I'm in the quicksand
oo-oo-oo-oo
I'm in the quicksand
oo-oo-oo-oo
I'm in the quicksand
oo-oo-oo-oo
I'm in the quicksand

Egg and Spinach Quiche Cups

Egg and Spinach Quiche Cups

10 ounces frozen chopped spinach
3/4 cup egg whites
3/4 cup shredded fat free cheese
1/4 cup red bell pepper, chopped
1/4 cup onion, chopped fine
hot sauce (optional)

Microwave the spinach on high for 2 1/2 minutes. Drain completely.
Line a 12 cup muffin tray with foil baking cups. Spray the cups with cooking spray.
Combine the egg substitute, cheese, mushrooms, spinach and onions in a bowl.
Add hot pepper to taste.
Divide evenly among the cups.
Bake at 350 for 20 minutes or until knife inserted comes out clean.
May then be frozen if desired.
Makes six muffin cups, 75 Calories each

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iPad with Wi-Fi 16GB - White (3rd generation)

Pre Ordered? Hells Yes

I want to make this

Title

Looking back at these I feel so much anger when I read them. But not in a bad way, remembering what my goal is. Honestly I am okay. I am happy now, now that I see everything on the outside.

My heart was broken, I couldn't sleep, eat, barely breathe. My direction, gone. My passion and heart, not. So I figured I would just tell myself to chill out for a few days.

This past week has been a dream. Good and bad, sometimes I think of what happened and get upset, but only for a few minutes. A few things I am remembering....

**I Define me
Not other THINGS, or PEOPLE, or PLACES. So focus on my talents and desires. Above all, and everything else.

**Take care of ME
For the next 30 days, my days will fully be focused around changing my body. For YEARS, I have let things go after I was sick. It's time to be the person I know I am, inside and especially out. Truth be told I was happy to be left alone after gaining weight. Being stalked and sought after when you are a girl in the world alone can be a scary thing. I'm over that now, and I want to feel good again. It's been 4 days so far and I can already see a difference in my face. Eating only meats, veggies, and a few other things like eggs, tiny amounts of cheese, etc. Never exceeding 1,200 calories a day. Followed by awesome diet pills, and working out twice a day. Feels absolutely incredible to be taking care of myself. With no pressure and no worries. I have taken "before pictures" Which i thought i would post, but I am not, cause yea...even though NO ONE reads this. I'm still shy?? Idk lol

All in all, I decided to try to relish this moment in my life of uncertainty. And its with everything.

When you think things cant possibly get worse

But they can...

We Can Burn Brighter Than The Sun

I thought I would be ready to let it all out, I guess not