And if you think peace is the common goal

..that goes to show how little you know...

One Love

Yup

Score

Never keep it, Doesn't matter. Everyone has their own scores in their head. It's our nature.

The last few days have felt very weird to me. Almost like a calm before something big happens, but that could just be me worrying for no reason. My world almost fell apart this weekend, so maybe it's that. I'm currently looking forward to seeing Ladytron! That is going to be amazing. I get this lingering feeling that I am not doing everything I can, even though I am so dam tired. I need to rest assured. And be Honest with myself.

Start Stop Continue

START

Painting again
Reading
Playing basketball
Seeing my friends
Taking a day to myself

STOP

Smoking
Worrying
Stressing
Being defensive
Wondering if something is wrong

CONTINUE

Working out and trying to lose weight
To be open to changes I need to make myself better
To fix my medical needs
To be young at heart
Loving music
Not caring what people think of my journey, it's Mine

This makes everything better

My Storm

I hate feeling so nervous about everything. Work, My Family, My relationships, My Career, Myself.  The past few days have been nothing but cleaning, painting, cooking, and taking care of kittens. Tired, but I feel so relieved to have the house at least half way done. Everything looks great in the living room. Some annoyances, left furniture, and its not just the stuff my mom left, my brother, and my friend too. I would really like to just toss it in the dumpster, honestly, I don't care where this shit goes. But it's going on a week now.  >.>   Stupid stuff, I know. Feeling restless with work, Trying to keep him up and holding on. He wants to move out of state now. I wish there was something more I could do, but I can't it's his career, not mine. Desperately hoping my efforts are not in vain. Feeling overwhelmed, a tiny bit lost, and tired. Silly though, always silly, looking for something to laugh at. Funny, right as I was typing that my cat London comes and attacks my toes. Thank god for kittens.

I know these times are just part of growing, and I'm grateful for the love in my life that i have right now.

Alright

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Favorite Quotes

"Despite everything, I believe that people are really good at heart."- Anne Frank

"I love people who make me laugh. I honestly think it's the thing I like most, to laugh. It cures a multitude of ills. It's probably the most important thing in a person." — Audrey Hepburn


“Imagination is more important than knowledge. For knowledge is limited to all we now know and understand, while imagination embraces the entire world, and all there ever will be to know and understand.”
-Albert Einstein

A man should look for what is, and not for what he thinks should be.
-Albert Einstein


“I think a hero is an ordinary individual who finds strength to persevere and endure in spite of overwhelming obstacles.” — Christopher Reeve

The greatest ignorance is to reject something you know nothing about

From Here On Out

I will keep better track.